Ideas

Zatoichi will have to wait.

Now that that i have pc access again, i seem to be loaded with ideas for personal projects and they are piling up. The first one actually i've been meaning to do for a while the other one is a self-concious attempt to reconnect with my neglected training in l. arch. Now that i've discovered a site to store images, i can work on both sites now. I just need a digicam to keep them running but I can work with what I have at this time.

first project is a family photo album. I've thought of this a couple of years ago when my email would get filled with pics of my aunt in italy and her family. Now that my parents are in the states and most of my relatives are scattered around the globe, i think this is a timely project.

The second is l arch related, just so i don't lose whatever measly training i got from the course. Actually it may be divided into two projects, i just have to decide if i have the energy and dedication to actually pursue them. Also am having trouble learning dreamweaver i guess i need more time to practice but whatever pc time i have is divided between playing sims and netting so its going to take long.

Zatoichi!!!!

It's been awhile since i last blogged...around 15 days ago hehe. I'm rainbow at philcoa wasting time til sm opens. Apparently there'sno international fax service here in philcoa so rather than go inside UP to search i'm just netting here with a somewhat horrid version of evanescence's song...and i suddenly forgot the title, basta its the slow love song thingie.

I watched gem's copy of zatochi this weekend. I'm supposed to write a glowing review/commentary but the finger-killer keyboard at this shop is making typing very difficult to say the least so I will spare my fingers the pain and leave that account till I get to my very own amiable almost brandnew pc.

yes, i'm not making much sense in some parts...promise to edit later

Enough of this torture...am signing of....

Out of the Blue (or I Think I'm Going Into Depression)

Something that I've always tried to search for and figure out is how the Filipino mind ticked. Our culture is stuck somewhere between tourism marketing strategies and grass roots activism. Who are we anyway?

Two recent events gave me a small glimpse into the Filipino psyche, something that we might be consisted about. Filipinos value life.

I just watched this on the news in passing. There was a man who went berserk and climbed the roof of one of the new steele overpasses in commonwealth (the MMDA are calling them footbridges now, an obvious influence a landscape architect) and he brought his young child along with him. After the usual attempts at reasoning with him and pleading with him to let the child go, he still jumps and carried his child with him. They said the child died instantly but the man was miraculously still alive. Well, I think, only until right about the time a mob of angry onlookers were finished with him.

The other event was when a Filipino trcuk driver in Iraq was hostaged by Iraqi militants. There were a lot of arguments about how it should have been handled. There were concerns about how we would look in the international community and how we would lose 'support' from the US. The bottomline is Filipinos don't really care about those things in the face of losing the life of a countryman. Governments such as the US could afford to stand their ground and not give in to terrorist demands, casualties would be called heroes and hailed for their sacrifice for the country. If Gloria did that she would have been out of Malacanang so fast she wouldn't know what hit her. I guess the hoopla over the issue about the news blackout then was to to find ways to salvage the situation.

That's why there will always be concern Flor Contemplacions and Sarah Babalabagans and film producers would continue making crappy movies about their lives/demise. So I guess we are not a 'big picture' nation afterall.

Too Mad To Sleep So I Blog

For orgmates, refer to the mailing list for the reason I got riled. I am so freakin angry that i'm shaking so bad. Why are people so...annoying? I'm supposed to be asleep now, i still have to go to work this evening. I don't think that's possible until I get this out of my chest.

It's really...annoying when misinformed people get all righteous and indignant. They get off ranting and raving like lunatics (and i use that word that in a bad sense) when they don't even have their facts straight. In effect they end up looking ignorant and overzealous. That's the problem with the world in general. I think there are so few 'big picture' people or they just don't get much notice. We are so wrapped up in our own microscopic niche in the world that everything seems all about us.

I wouldn't have reacted so violently if the sentiments stated by that person wasn't obviously directed to someone in particular. But by attacking the person through some veiled concern for the org, other people were dragged in. I am just one of them.

I don't want to pull seniority but I don't appreciate being called useless even though it was just hinted at and not at all directed at me. But if you don't have your facts straight you don't have the right to gripe at all. Oooh...i'm so mad I want to wring someone's neck. I have enough stress dealing with difficult americans over the phone to have to deal with this, this...annoying person. I am tempted to retaliate by putting a ban on the account, I am a moderator afterall but I won't stoop down to that level. (Oooops! The mouse slipped, I accidentally cancelled your membership. The power mwahahahahaha!!!!!)

It's not worth losing sleep over but I don't have control over my temper these days. Its so bad that i am actually 'marked' as an irate agent at the office. I have my very own police patrolling my area just to remind me to calm down. It's actually funny but can't laugh about it today.