Thursday, September 28, 2006

general feeling...

general feeling of dissatisfaction...

with life, with self, and the world in general…

LIFE, THE UNIVERSE, AND EVERYTHING…

(i might need Terry Pratchett's wise absurdities)

Actually I heard from old friends recently, friends and relatives I haven't heard from for a while. I was quite happy to hear from them out of the blue but now I'm sad coz I've been neglectful and I haven't kept in touch.

REFLECTIVE...

TAKING STOCK…

EVALUATING…

Funny I've just noticed that I'm taking longer in the bathroom with my daily bath. No matter how early I go in I still come out later than I'm supposed to come out so I'll be early for work. It's the only time I get to think these days

STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS…

I'm in the office right now and I feel guilty.

I don't want to talk to anyone.

She needs constant attention or she might kill herself. My seatmate I mean.

I can't babysit her today…we shouldn't sit together.

DICHOTOMY-IMPAIRED

I'm coining this word. It's fot those who could not tell left from right...as for myself i have trouble wtih the naming siamese and persian cats, no matter how I tell myself I have it backwards, I always end up saying the wrong name. I've finally developed a system to make myself remember. Siamese are also asociated with twins-we had a cheap framed abstracts of twin cats before-they were shor haired. Therefore, Siamese cats have short hairs and Persians are long-haired.

It could be extended to gray area inhabitants and not just the literal

I made her sad. Maybe I'm being mean unintentionally. I do know I have a mean streak…I'm not the nice girl that everyone thinks. It's not as if I'm being plastic or deceptive but it takes a lot to get me riled. And at her her age she has to learn that she is not the center of the universe...